So just to bump my old journal out of the way...

I feel like I'm not exceeding at art anymore. Sure I have gotten better...but with the masses of other ridiculously awesome artists out there it's kinda hard to think I would even be considered an artist. sure it takes time and years but I don't know even what to do....what do people like when they sift through these sites? And being furry is a completely different ball game....I just feel like I'm not up to being a good enough artist that people would even consider buying things from me at cons.....Can we just stamp a big friggin F to my head and sit me in the corner now?

I'm not trying to be excessively depressed but I'm scared...so very scared...when I was 19 i had pre-cervical cancer with the abnormal cancer cells along the lining of my cervix. I went through a cryosurgery and it seemed to clear it out up until about 2 weeks ago went I had my check up.




They're back again and chances are I may have to do another cryosurgery...but the chances of them spreading and actually giving me the cancer scares me cause then...everything would have to come out...and I mean everything (so no puppies in the future if that happens).

So I'm trying to keep my head up and try not to worry about it...though...it still scares the living shite out of me.

so i got tagged by my friend darn my luck. sooo here we go.

30 Things about yourself.



1. What's a commonly used nickname people call you by? Blueberry, Nuri...or anything

2. What's your favourite color? Ocean blue

3. What's your favourite food? PHO! Wooo

4. Are you a squeamish person? I can be...depends on what makes me squeamish...like children...

5. What's your favourite animal? Wolf

6. Biggest pet peeve? When people are not specific as to what they want or are doing...

7.If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? right now? California..or Ireland

8. Do you cry easily? Yes...I shamelessly admit I'm a big crybaby if provoked.

9. Do you generally have a good, loving family? Only if no one is intentionally trying to piss someone off.

10. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes

11. Do you have many phobias? Spiders...fucking spiders...

12. Favourite genre of music? Heavy Metal and industrial come really close..

13. What's your thoughts on homosexuals? To each their own.

14. Are you a trendsetter, a trend follower, or do you dress originally? What is this you speak of? Trends? Bwa fool I follow NO ONE!...ok seriously I wear what is comfortable..

15. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose? Plenty..

16. Do you like school? I do when no one is fucking with me...

17. Are you known to spend your money quickly? Who else do you know that could spend 2200$ in 3 hours?

18. What time is it right now? 10:06PM

19. Are you on the computer a lot? before and after work only

21. Pet hermit crabs: a good thing or a bad thing? Ew....no

22. Leftie or Righty? Right

23. Do you have any scars/stretch marks, etc? Alot..arms, hands legs, face...they're everywhere

24. Do you have dull elbows or pointy elbows? Pointy enough to hurt you o_o

25. Timmies or Starbucks? WTF is Timmies? Screw Starbucks I'm going to Pete's.

26. Do you have any sleeping problems? Yes...sometimes i can't sleep for days and when i do...nightmares...

27. Are you a shy person? Very much

28. Are you a gift-giver?I always give no matter what ^_^

29. Warm or cold? In between

30. Do you like meeting new people? Yea as long as they don't run away screaming.

Ok I tag anyone who wants to do this cause I can't think of anynames ;_;

So I've noticed that alot of people on here are wither getting hacked, having art stolen and what not and it makes me wonder if it's even worth stomping around here anymore. I mean I first started off here AND I know I made my fair share of threats to never come back but I always do. But to the fact that there are people who are twisted enough or for that matter STUPID enough to hack and steal art is another thing entirely to mindless OMGI'MLEAVINGFOREVARKTHNXBYE is something different.

I have other galleries just none as filled as this one but whatever...

So I'm thinking about taking comissions right now of anything really. I tried my hand at digital coloring again and feel that I have lost the feel for it. Nothing like tradtional art all the way. bu yea....anyone want a comission from me???